Merry Christmas

I am not happy

Can't sleep well, can't eat well.....
Pissed off..... Hating...... Tired.... Exhausted.....

The most happy moment is sitting in front of my lappy, turn on the Facebook and sharing the happiness with my Auckland's friend.....

Why every time I don't feel good when I coming home? This should be my home, the place I live.
Every time stepped out from airplane and not more than 24 hours I already wanted to go back.

If I am not happy then why I still want to come back?
I thought things might change but seems like I was totally wrong....

Maybe this place doesn't belong to me.......

That's why I don't want to come back.....

Empty promise again. I really hate it....
Every time I am home there is sure something bad happen.

Argue again which make me so damn tired. Got no strength for this anymore....
What's wrong with me if I save money for travel?
Why you always don't let me travel and want to cut down my money? This is the money I save for so long and so hard. Can you don't care my business?

I am honest with you because I am respecting you, if you don't want then don't try to promise me.
Now you take back your words and make me drop from heaven to hell. How mean are you?
I hate this kind of thing happen to me....

You said before you send me to oversea because you can effort it, now you complaint that I didn't think about you?
You want me to study medical, I drop my favourite event management just want to make you proud and happy....
How can you said I never think about you? I do everything for you and I know you also do everything for me.... so.... I very respect you....

I go travel and I never ask for you for a single penny, why you still want to break my dream?
You promised me everything that you will do for me when I come back and now you have done nothing for me and still want to cut down my money when you heard I got saving?

How can you do this to me? How can.....? How can...... ?
I still will go to travel.... because it is my dream and I won't let it go easily.....

Maybe not coming home is the right choice and also a peaceful way to do it.......
Next time, I won't tell you everything because I try to respect you but I don't get any respect from you.....