It is already 3 weeks together with Mr.B.
The conversation between me and him become boring day by day. Everyday he just called me ask me all the daily life stuff. 3 weeks we never talk any dirty talk at all. This is not normal right? I mean we not 15 or 16 years old. This is not puppy love.
We got Skype with each other, every time I gave him a seductive smile, he got no feeling at all. WTF~! Is he gay or too naive? Every time I gave a seductive smile to any guy I Skype they sure start dirty conversation with me. He is really different.
Yesterday, I finally can't stand any more. I text him and I want to light his fire. But... I failed....
WTF~!!!
This is how I start the Conversation:
Me: Are you a good kisser?
He: I don't know, Why?
Me: I am just wondering. Are you?
He: I really don't know, when we kiss you tell me ok?
(I thought the some love conversation can move on...... but.............)
He: Why you suddenly ask this kinda question?
Me: -_-" ........ I want to know....
He: Next time we together, we can kiss each other, hug each other and sleep together. (oh yeah~ he took the bait)
Me: You mean which kinda sleep?
He: Just sleep, why?
(I was like FCK you, are you idiot or "kayu"? A girl start this kinda conversation, they don't want you to keep asking why and why and why.......)
end up.... it is obviously he didn't took the bait. And he is a stupid idiot keep asking why..... I was so speechless...
Then I have to pretend that I am drunk, so I talk this kinda of things.
I am not that kinda of acting innocent, pure girl but inside is fucking slut and bitch. I am a very open minded girl, I can talk dirty stuff, but it doesn't mean that I am slut or bitch. I know a lots of Malaysian Chinese like that kinda innocent girl. ( I just want to slap all guys and said that can't you see they are just a bitch that act innocent).
I really don't know how long I still can stand for this. I started to feel frustrated, annoyed and bored with his childish puppy naive kinda conversation.
But... I really don't want the relationship end so quickly, I want to try, and work hard to maintain this relationship, but I really don't know how long I can stand for it.
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Hot Hot Demonstrator
New Semester, New Lab, New Life and New Demonstrator.
I got a lab and the lab demonstrator's body is so damn hot. He is a leader of a surf club, so you can imagine how his body. He is very good in science, he explain things in simple and very useful way. Unfortunately, he is not very handsome.
My semester test is coming soon, the lecture throw a revision tutorial. He was teaching the tutorial today. I went into class with my friend. At first I was concentrating what he is teaching, but I end up looking at his body shape and day dreaming.
Now is winter, even a jersey can't cover his muscular body shape. He has wide shoulder, strong muscular arm, triangle body shape, sexy butt. I can bet that he sure got 6 packs. OMG, he look yummy and I sound horny.
But.... he actually is a very nice person, he always smile and he will explain the thing repeat and repeat until you understand. Tomorrow I will have the lab, hope he is there and benefit my eyes....
I got a lab and the lab demonstrator's body is so damn hot. He is a leader of a surf club, so you can imagine how his body. He is very good in science, he explain things in simple and very useful way. Unfortunately, he is not very handsome.
My semester test is coming soon, the lecture throw a revision tutorial. He was teaching the tutorial today. I went into class with my friend. At first I was concentrating what he is teaching, but I end up looking at his body shape and day dreaming.
Now is winter, even a jersey can't cover his muscular body shape. He has wide shoulder, strong muscular arm, triangle body shape, sexy butt. I can bet that he sure got 6 packs. OMG, he look yummy and I sound horny.
But.... he actually is a very nice person, he always smile and he will explain the thing repeat and repeat until you understand. Tomorrow I will have the lab, hope he is there and benefit my eyes....
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Monday, August 6, 2012
Is it considered as dream come true?
I always wanted to find an Acmarian (Acmar is my high school name) as my boyfriend. Now I have 1, is it considered as dream come true?
This guy (let's call him Mr.B).
Mr.B last few months suddenly come and talk to me on FB. We found out we got a lot of same interest. We both like to cook, we both like the same type of house and we both like the same type of pet.
On 31st July, I can't sleep at night and I received his whatsapp, we start to flirt to each other. Then he asked me can I be his GF. I said yes. From that day onwards, he called me everyday from Malaysia to New Zealand to talk to me. The conversation is happy, but he made too much of commitments to me which I feel so creepy. I think things suddenly come too fast and too much of commitments can't make me digest.
I am a person that don't really believe in love, and I don't trust long distance love at all. Some more we never meet yet. I don't want my life story repeat again. I used to have a unmet boyfriend before (Mr.J). We never meet but because we got a lots of conversation and we end up together. Unmet love never work out, me and Mr.J story end badly. I really don't want this happened again.
But this guy is really match what I expect my boyfriend own. I know if me and him get serious, things sure work out fine. I want to try, but I really scared to step out. Maybe as my friend said, I always build a thick wall around my heart to protect myself?
His love is too strong and too furious, sometimes I really can't take it. I need to cool down my heart, because I don't want really fall for him deeply. I really scared Mr.J case will happen again. Maybe he get use to be so good to his GF? I am a timid, I scared to get hurt. So I always protect myself well. I started to feel unsecured and feel fed up with his sweet talk. Maybe I can feel that my heart is already gone to him?
I really need time to cool down and think... I like him as well, as the same way I scared it doesn't work out again. So, I really need my space to think alone and to calm down. Sometimes his love really make me can't breath.
This guy (let's call him Mr.B).
Mr.B last few months suddenly come and talk to me on FB. We found out we got a lot of same interest. We both like to cook, we both like the same type of house and we both like the same type of pet.
On 31st July, I can't sleep at night and I received his whatsapp, we start to flirt to each other. Then he asked me can I be his GF. I said yes. From that day onwards, he called me everyday from Malaysia to New Zealand to talk to me. The conversation is happy, but he made too much of commitments to me which I feel so creepy. I think things suddenly come too fast and too much of commitments can't make me digest.
I am a person that don't really believe in love, and I don't trust long distance love at all. Some more we never meet yet. I don't want my life story repeat again. I used to have a unmet boyfriend before (Mr.J). We never meet but because we got a lots of conversation and we end up together. Unmet love never work out, me and Mr.J story end badly. I really don't want this happened again.
But this guy is really match what I expect my boyfriend own. I know if me and him get serious, things sure work out fine. I want to try, but I really scared to step out. Maybe as my friend said, I always build a thick wall around my heart to protect myself?
His love is too strong and too furious, sometimes I really can't take it. I need to cool down my heart, because I don't want really fall for him deeply. I really scared Mr.J case will happen again. Maybe he get use to be so good to his GF? I am a timid, I scared to get hurt. So I always protect myself well. I started to feel unsecured and feel fed up with his sweet talk. Maybe I can feel that my heart is already gone to him?
I really need time to cool down and think... I like him as well, as the same way I scared it doesn't work out again. So, I really need my space to think alone and to calm down. Sometimes his love really make me can't breath.
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