Make a better life by wide thinking

Do you think your life is really sucks?
- I used to....

Do you hate your family without paying attention on you?
- I used to....

Do you start not to step out of your room and computer is your only friend?
- I used to....

Do you think your parent didn't equal the love?
- I used to.....

I don't like my life while I was in my hometown..... I can't stand people gossiping about me.... I hate the people, family and I hate everything while I back to my hometown.
Till now... I still don't really like them.

When I went to New Zealand and start my new life I learn to think wide....
-I enjoy my life
-I understanding my parent
-I learn to go out every weekend
-I learn to accept the love that are not balance

I'm satisfy now....

Disappointed

With a happy and excited mood to take a flight~
Feel tired while waiting for the flight transfer~
Taking super heavy baggage and hand carry items~
What all I've done is just want to meet my family~
This is what I deserve for done all this things?
Guess what?

Sibling don't hope I can come back~
Relatives say I'm wasting money~
Neighbour say I'm suffer over there and run back here~
Drawers lost and clothes lost too~
Don't have even 1 bed or pillow~
Mother keep complaining~

Only:
My mama, cousin and SJB are happy for this~

What I've done?
Kill you guys family?
Slap you guys?

Buying gift for you guys and carry from so far away, and all you guys pay back to me is this kinda things?

I feel want to go back to New Zealand now.
Even I'm lonely there, but at least I don't need to suffer this kinda stuff from you guys.