Depressed

I am so stressed and going to die soon... I am so regret why I choose this subject, I knew this subject will not suit me at all and I am so stupid go and choose it.

I almost study everyday but nothing get into my mind. At first I thought I only need to pass then will be fine. Now I am concerned about that, because I don't think I can pass. I am totally blur during all lectures and what none of the thing get into my mind.

A really bad news came 2 days ago, this paper I took have a selection on year 2. That means I not only need to pass and I need to compete with others to get into year 2? Holy Shit~ I not gonna make it. I am very sure I will not be selected to year 2.

I not dare to tell my mum about it but I know I need to tell her sooner or later. Now I feel want to cry, but don't know why I can't cry. Maybe too stressed?

I started to run away from problem, started to miss home, because I have a bad habit, every time I started to stressed out and a lots of problem comes toward me, I will run away from it. I really scared my habit will destroy my future.

There is no other way for me to go... I need to go for it, die for it and next year you'll see what hell will happen on me~

The Childish Demonstrator

My biology animals LAB got 1 super childish demonstrator. She thought she still in primary school or what.

That day I was stay late in the LAB, demonstrators are chit chating while waiting for us. The conversation is like this:

Demon A: This class is better, I used to had a class last semester, the student called me bitch.

She: You should failed her, ask her want to pass or not.

When I heard, I was... ( this is not fair dude.... you cannot fail a pupils by insulting you)

Then, my flatmate told me she knew this demonstrator and my flatmate said she is studious and many lecturers like her.

She won't share the notes to her friends = selfish.

I am fine with that, maybe she think she put a lot of effort in it and she not willing to lend to others.....

but.....

If her classmate sharing notes or copy each other work... she cannot stand it and will report to the lecturer.

WTF~! don't you think she is childish like baby?

She is just like primary children complaint to teacher that: teacher~ teacher~ that A and B copy each other work....

Dude... this is University, people helping each other ok....

Is fine if you don't want to help others, but please don't be so busy body and please be mature.

By the way, she is already 27 years old.... She is Asian, I think she is from the traditional oriental family.

Luckily she is working in LAB, if not she sure can't survive in office politics.