Long Time No See

3 weeks holiday just pass like this...time fly by...

During this 3 weeks I went to Auckland and Rotorua. It is so fun, but I spend more than 1k NZD.

This month I really need to save money already. T.T

Mapling again, but this time I play US server which is more fun, at least people won't ask you cc.

Yesterday finally got my result, I really speechless when see it. I need to discuss with my mum but she in Vietnam now. I failed a subject and I am sure I can't go in for 2nd year (selection).

But don't know why I didn't cry, maybe I already knew this? or already give up?

I am tired already, speechless already and don't care already.

Hope holiday don't end.

Screwed

I thought University life is fun, playing and drinking.
I was totally wrong, I am screwed now~!

Failed 2 subjects during semester test, hope I can do well in final ~.~

Everyday go to class with "?" ; after class with more "???".
Attend to lab, don't even know what am I doing.
I fell so stupid, why I want to choose Science subject? I am an art person; I studied fashion design last time and I know I can't do well in exam but I can do well in assignment.
Arrghh~! Why I am so stupid choose the subject that always focus on exam.
Now I am screwed up..... totally screwed my life~!

Depressed

I am so stressed and going to die soon... I am so regret why I choose this subject, I knew this subject will not suit me at all and I am so stupid go and choose it.

I almost study everyday but nothing get into my mind. At first I thought I only need to pass then will be fine. Now I am concerned about that, because I don't think I can pass. I am totally blur during all lectures and what none of the thing get into my mind.

A really bad news came 2 days ago, this paper I took have a selection on year 2. That means I not only need to pass and I need to compete with others to get into year 2? Holy Shit~ I not gonna make it. I am very sure I will not be selected to year 2.

I not dare to tell my mum about it but I know I need to tell her sooner or later. Now I feel want to cry, but don't know why I can't cry. Maybe too stressed?

I started to run away from problem, started to miss home, because I have a bad habit, every time I started to stressed out and a lots of problem comes toward me, I will run away from it. I really scared my habit will destroy my future.

There is no other way for me to go... I need to go for it, die for it and next year you'll see what hell will happen on me~

The Childish Demonstrator

My biology animals LAB got 1 super childish demonstrator. She thought she still in primary school or what.

That day I was stay late in the LAB, demonstrators are chit chating while waiting for us. The conversation is like this:

Demon A: This class is better, I used to had a class last semester, the student called me bitch.

She: You should failed her, ask her want to pass or not.

When I heard, I was... ( this is not fair dude.... you cannot fail a pupils by insulting you)

Then, my flatmate told me she knew this demonstrator and my flatmate said she is studious and many lecturers like her.

She won't share the notes to her friends = selfish.

I am fine with that, maybe she think she put a lot of effort in it and she not willing to lend to others.....

but.....

If her classmate sharing notes or copy each other work... she cannot stand it and will report to the lecturer.

WTF~! don't you think she is childish like baby?

She is just like primary children complaint to teacher that: teacher~ teacher~ that A and B copy each other work....

Dude... this is University, people helping each other ok....

Is fine if you don't want to help others, but please don't be so busy body and please be mature.

By the way, she is already 27 years old.... She is Asian, I think she is from the traditional oriental family.

Luckily she is working in LAB, if not she sure can't survive in office politics.

Tired

Awww... I am tired.... I am stressed out.... I am lazy.... I don't have mood....

I regret to take science course~ no rest... no time....

I got lame result on my test.... hit down all my confident....

I not dare to speak English in front of the Kiwis because my English is sucks....

I really really really scared I have to retake the course....

Tomorrow I got a test which I really hope I can Pass.... I not asking for full mark... I just want to pass....

Papa... if u heard me... please "po pi" your daughter pass all her test and exam, and let me "ping ping an an" graduate.

Hi again.

Sorry for not updating the blog this few month.

When I went back to Malaysia I am busy hanging out with friend and shopping.

Now I back to New Zealand again, move from Auckland to Palmerston North.

Settled down at last, but my stupid lap top cannot connect to the internet at my hostel. >.<"

What my opinion about Palmerston North?

Not bad as I thought, although not crowded like Auckland.

No seaside which is sad, because i am kinda beach and island lover.

How is my university life?

It is sucks, I can't slack like I use to be because I have to do all the things by myself.

The lecturers are not longer well-feed me like Taylors College.

Everyday feel sleepy, go inside the lectures actually didn't absorb anything....

How is my hostel?

I live with 2 Malaysian and 1 Indian.

1 Malaysian is kinda traditional Chinese Malaysian, Kiasu study super hard, but she really help me a lot with my chemistry.

Another Malaysian is mix Indian and German, open minded and like to see rugby guy... haha..

The Indian girl is same like the open-minded Malaysian girl. We talk a lot, hang out and drink during weekend. Our topic is about guy and guy.

Conclusion:

So far nothing special happen and I am tired and busy everyday. I can't imagine when final exam come because I really have no idea what am I doing now.

PS: i am kinda regret that listen to my mum study science, coz I don't think I am kinda Science person.

Merry Christmas